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2017-01-03 09:55 am
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I'm nerdy and I know it

Having obsessions is the human condition. Everyone is obsessed with something just some of us get called nerds and geeks for the obsessions we have.

“…because nerds like us are allowed to be unironically enthusiastic about stuff… Nerds are allowed to love stuff, like jump-up-and-down-in-the-chair-can’t-control-yourself love it. Hank, when people call people nerds, mostly what they’re saying is ‘you like stuff.’ Which is just not a good insult at all. Like, ‘you are too enthusiastic about the miracle of human consciousness’.” - JOHN GREEN
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2017-01-02 10:25 am
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The Lonely Loner

I confessed to a friend that I had cried the previous night because I was lonely. This friend then said " I thought you liked being alone". I didn't know what to say to that because yes I do like being alone but being lonely is different to being alone.

Loneliness is sadness. I think loneliness is tightly coiled with depression. Loneliness can make you depressed and depression can get lonely. You don't have to be alone to be lonely.

I think loneliness is not spoken about much but it's an increasing problem social media is isolating people, our increased life span is isolating people and our life styles are isolating people.

I have moments where I can spend days with no social interaction and love it and I can have one hour of no social interaction and feel like my house is a gaol slowly getting smaller. In those moments loneliness can overcome me and I cry for my past, present and future isolation.
Looking back on my life loneliness has been in the shadows my whole life but it ramped up when I started living by myself a few years ago.

I have developed coping mechanisms these days like just going out and people watching, making a call, text some one but sometimes those things are not enough so I have a breakdown and that's okay.
Loneliness is okay it's sadness I have to tell myself it's not going to be forever.